Witrot the best FSS athlete in 35-39 - according to the result - is Eugene Gotz. I'm pretty sure I'm a lot better than him in the timetrials, I know I am better in terms of last years kermesse. His wife happens to be the secretary or voorsitter of the club I applied to, but I doubt whether there is a conspiracy there. I'm just saying it's not a very clever/positive/rational move from my province to cut me out of a national championship when I am (arguably) their best representative. I don't think it is good for me, or for cycling. But I think you're missing the point. The point isn't how good am I, but: 1) are our standards for cycling high enough (in general) 2) is it acceptable that we have double standards - we allow some riders to ride because we like them, and others we exclude to spite them. Because there are double standards in our officials, at regional and national level, and this is unacceptable. The answer is pretty obvious once you get over this game of tit for tat, namecalling and nitpicking ping pong. I didn't ride today because I was purposely excluded. I made it very clear that it was my goal to ride today, and so specific people went out of their way to prevent that. I take heart though that I'm not the only person in this position. Benni McCarthy - if you check his case carefully - has also been spited and excluded by the soccer authorities. Now they want him to take part - and he is SA's best soccer player. And he's not interested. What he probably deserves is an apology. The country should demand one on his behalf if they care about soccer. But do you think the soccer officials will ever apologise? Not a chance. Never! As far as they're concerned, they are more important than he is (and by implication, than the sport). That's not right. Exactly the same in my case, except I don't imagine I am that good. I'm no national treasure, but I do have something to contribute, don't we all. I'd like my place in the sun. My time and my life and my goals are important to me, even if to no one else. That's what I am defending. What is particularly unacceptable was that it was not an accidental error, some individuals purposely sabotaged my attempt to compete. That is a disgrace and that needs to be addressed. Not me. Forget about my finger and rather look at whom it is pointing to...