Dear All, I am Octavian, and I am a double poster. So, Admin has banned me, but as you can see that term is relative. I have lost my profile, which while upsetting, for me isn’t a train smash in the bigger scheme of things. Do I regret what I have done? Yes I do. Will I do it again? No I won’t. So, I am sure the million dollar question is, why did I do it? Let’s put it like this…It was a moment of stupidity on my part, and as I described to Admin, I really was just having some fun, and I was enjoying the banter that my alter-ego, Blackboy, was engaging in. You will note from the thread that I hadn’t insulted anyone, I hadn’t called anyone a “clickhead” or “ghey”, nor had I initiated any form of personal attack on anyone. Had I known that my profile would be deleted permanently, I would without a doubt not have done it. At worst I was expecting a warning point, if caught. I had no idea that engaging in this behavior, would carry a permanent ban when contrasting it against the personal, racist, religious, homophobic, insulting type commentary that goes unpunished on this forum. Some of which I have also got carried away in from time to time, which is also something that I regret, and for which I have without fail issued a personal apology to anyone that I thought I had insulted/wronged. However, I challenge anyone here that hasn’t done anything regrettable to step forward and to cast the first stone. I realise also that I at times am a **** stirrer, but I assure you it is never done with any malice. I enjoy playing devil’s advocate and enjoy taking a non-conformist view on many issues, as I strongly feel that very little of what you see is how it really is. Life is not black & white… Why am I writing this letter? Well, I accept that what I did was wrong and that I shouldn’t have done it. Saying that I am quite hurt at the severity of the action that was handed out to me, and the very evident double standards that are applied in this forum. However, the main reason for writing this letter is to hold out to all of the great people that I have been able to share experiences with here, that I will miss you all. The majority of you have been in many instances the only compassionate sounding board for me during turbulent times. And I will miss you for that. Likewise, the majority of you have also been there for me during good times, and have shared with me in enjoying many things that we have in common, and I will miss you for this as well. For all this, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will never be able to post as Octavian again, and I am sad for that as it is many relationships that have come to an end with one foul click of a mouse button. Lastly, once again, I want to thank you all for what you have meant to me, and will still mean to me…. Octavian lives…
