Greetings Hubbers!
Trust you guys and gals are doing well...
So on the 20th of Jan, after an awesome ride from home to Bloemendal, doing a few laps, clearing the bigger jumps (recently started progressing a fair bit with my jumps/gaps/drop-offs/etc)... I literally did the one thing we are never meant to do... the whole "just one last section/lap/etc"... and decided to hit up a few little double jumps and some berms literally on my way out of the trail on my way home (after seeing off a riding buddy at his car)... and then literally in the very last berm on my way out... I came into the corner (with a fair bit of speed after clearing a little double jump before it), and the next moment, I just lost the front (trails are extremely dry and loose, and I suspect my tyre pressure was too high too, as I tend to make my Assegai & DHR a bit firmer when I ride from home vs going there with my car)... I ended up SMASHING into the ground with my left arm tucked into my side, in turn smashing my elbow into my rib cage... wind knocked clean out of me, me getting up sounding a Northwestern Manatee giving birth... I also felt a pop/click sensation in my chest, and suspected I popped a rib or two (thankfully on first post-crash check it wasn't a shoulder or collar bone as I have a roasty on my shoulder too from impacting the gravel).
So after checking my bike, then myself, 🤣 dusting myself off, wiping some blood off my arm and leg, etc, I decided to ride it off (still had around 15km to get home from the trails on an Enduro/All Mountain bike), but around the time I reached the corridor exit close to the Protea hotel, the pain in my left side was basically unbearable, so I called in a favour with my buddy who I rode with.
Long story short: After a whole mission with getting my bike home, etc, I ended up going to the Emergency Room at my local Mediclinic for Xrays/to get everything checked out... Xrays came up clear of any fractures, but the Doctor said he suspects I might've broken the cartilage on the rib cage as well as tore/seriously injured the muscles around the ribs (which won't show up on Xrays). They gave me a prescription for some strong pain & anti-inflammatory meds.
So it's been a rough week and a half, with pain and discomfort, but what has been worse for me is the mental challenge... I often find myself thinking this was such bland/stupid crash, and I ended up in ER, what where to happen if I come off doing some of the bigger jumps/pallet drop-offs/higher speed corners that we frequently do on the trails... is it worth the risk, etc? Bearing in mind I'm 38 now, so not a youngster anymore, and I have a wife and kid who are dependent on me, etc.
I actually contemplated selling my Enduro bike and getting a trail hard tail, focusing on fitness rather than "shredding the gnar"/doing bigger jumps/gaps/dropoffs or whatever you want to call the dragon I was constantly chasing the last year or so... but then I also thought, this is out of 8000km+ of riding, the first time I've actually "seriously" gotten hurt, and I wasn't doing something where I rode outside of my "skill/comfort/ability" zone.
So on to my question to you guys, what have you experienced, and how has it impacted your mental state, and did you give up or just get back on and continue where you left off, etc?
Cheers!