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I think I have a Train Sim 21 key for anyone looking to get the game. I forgot that I have the game

We have a BEE in the bonnet if you catch my drift... Some people think you just need someone who knows what keys to press and that must just do the job. Another problem we have is that we do not have other AMD CPU's in stock to do the upgrade. The reasoning is someone else will take care of it (that is the view of some of the higher ups in the company.)

Started my chemo this morning. So far nothing to bad. Everything just has a metallic smell to it. Thursday its my nemesis again. The dreaded MRI Machine and one hour of "musical" torture for a baseline to see what the new medication kills... The last blood test did not look good at all. My cancer marker that were 25 last year came to 384. And the one that was 5 is now on 49. but at least we have a base line now. And the doctor was happy that I requested the blood test.

It is very interesting but I know that there is a ongoing study regarding the gut biome and effects that covid has on the patient.I think we underestimate what the gut bacteria has on us. Will ask the oncologist what he thinks about it. They seem very slow to look at treatment trails and other treatment options. Even with the tests that were done I am not sure on my treatment plans (even the medical aid seems a bit reluctant at the treatment plans) But will know in two months and a MRI scan

Had a lawyer that I used when the previous company retrenched me. But he was as useless as Eskom providing uninterrupted electricity.So will keep my eyes open and I might join Solidariteit just to protect myself. But this time I will fight and not take it like a dog being kicked every day.

Was informed today that I face being retrenched or medically boarded because I can’t perform at 100% due to my health. But like before this gets dropped on me at 16h30 in the afternoon on a Friday. Just to fudge my weekend. And this was the MO the previous time I work at the company. I was told that things will be made unbearable for me till I quit as they did with an employee that received the same treatment last year. So I do not know what to do anymore. This morning I thought of driving of a bridge. This illness and the things at the company are driving me to unsavory thoughts.

i have to thank you for this post you made. We had the exact problem at the office yesterday. So I knew where the problem was and how to fix it.You saved me a crapload of time having to draw pictures to the system builder that did not know what to do. I just refused to collect my CPU from home to fix their problem

[emoji22] got a phone call... Mr Marais, why did you miss your appointment? So we had a mixup over the phone. I thought I had an appointment with the Oncologist for Monday. Sounds like the tannie said I had to see the Oncologist at 11h30 today and not Monday. That is why I live e-mails... You can trace what was said. So had to reschedule for Monday morning at 10h15. Had a bit of inspiration today. I saw a client with breast cancer last year. Delivered her notebook and did the setups etc. Saw her again today... I did not recognize her. She looked healthy and as a normal person would. I started tearing up. It was a little boost of hope and moral for me. I felt so embarrassed it wasn’t funny.

It bloody sucks. And some people I am working for do not understand that I am unable to still do some things. But we will see what happens when I puke all over a client. The juggling game is starting to become more and more difficult. And I hope that the new treatment will help. It will either kill me or heal me. And when people start making stupid remarks I have to bite my cheek not to lash out at them.

I was white as a sheet when I reached the hospital. When the nurse let out a curse word when she saw the wound the world started spinning. It is the worst seeing blood where there should be none.

and I am the biggest gainer! Flippen hell!

My wound started opening up. There was a fluid buildup and it found the route of the least resistance. And that was the scar tissue of my navel. And it did not help much that I was crawling on the ground looking for a bloody network cable and power outlets at a clients office. Doctor said no heavy lifting and now crawling around. Not much fun if you see blood on your shirt out of a scar.

Waiting to see a surgeon. Seems like my wound is starting to open. Started with some bleeding at my navel and seems that there is some more blood starting on the scar.

I might have someone that can help to repaint my bike. I am thinking of a creative turn to get the message out against cancer. I know in the cancer circles F””” cancer is the norm, but I would like something more family-friendly... But my creativity is lacking, and I need some help. Anyone with an idea on a creative way to get the message out? Anyone with creativity that can help?

I think we just got a very bad batch then. But then as I said I have a very fine line to walk in what I eat. Last night we had Quinoa with some fetta cheese, green pepper and King Oyster mushrooms. Was a very filling meal for me. The mushrooms did not effect me at all. And it did not rush out of me in less than two hours.

We started looking at eating less animal products and then going vegetarian this year. I can't just stop eating animal products but have to phase it out due to a few health problems. We did a meatless Friday last week and made the epic mistake to try Denny Patties (https://www.denny.co.za/single-post/2020/09/28/beef-style-mushroom-burger) for our Friday Burgers. What a big mistake. Remember where I said I have to take it slow... Well my body decided to reject the burger and the patty. Most of Friday night and Saturday was spent being sick. Going vegetarian again will not be such a huge problem for me. But not sure how my shortened gut will like the change.

A little inspiration for today. Out one Budgie Kiwi has a weight problem. She weighed 50grams at the start of January. Today we did another weight check on her. She lost 10 grams and she is now on her ideal weight of 40 grams [emoji16] I am a proud dad today

Some good news! Momentum approved two rounds of chemotherapy! The reason only two rounds have been approved is that they want to make sure that I can cope with whats been requested. The drug goes by STIVARGA. So I am exited to start a new round of chemo.

Hi there We are still waiting on Momentum to stop taking me for a ride. My wife contacted them again today, no reply. The head of Oncology is on leave. Started noticing that I have a dull pain on my abdominal area. So hope Momentum will stock mucking about. I have a feeling it is starting to be a battle that I do not have the energy to fight. I had a contact lens fitment this afternoon. I started tearing up when I could read text on the screen. It has been a very long time since I could see even though it is only 80%. I apologize if I post things that I have posted. I noticed that I can’t remember things anymore. Even some of our budgies are a challenge attempting to remember their names. So it is a challenge at work. They expect me to remember what clients' systems I worked on from last month. Just glad that I was at the doctor as they are attempting to pin things on me. So things at work are a bit tough and starting to put a huge amount of stress on me. It sucks if you are accused of things left right and center every bloody day.

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Think I must join in. Have a very hard time keeping my weight stable. Gained 3.7 KG from the 4th of December after being on a liquid diet for 3 weeks. Was at 75.50 kg this morning.

Morning all. Not much has happened the last few weeks. Still waiting for Momentum to give the go ahead on my chemo treatment. Have 4 stitches left in my stoma that has to be removed as it seems that they are not going to dissolve on their own so have to schedule with the stoma clinic to have it removed. Went to the optometrist this past weekend. I have been struggling to see from my last hospital visit, and had to get a optometrist that can make scleral lenses or hard lenses. The Keratoconus is still a huge problem, but now have discoloration of my lenses in my eyes do to chemo. My lenses are no longer clear, but they have dulled to a grey color due to the chemo treatments that I received. My butt is itching to get onto a bicycle again. I cleaned out the tires (all the stuck on sealant) and got my bike ready. Will have to do the same to the SO bike as well. And just get the 4 stitches removed. and get the new contact lenses as I can't cycle with my old glasses at the moment. So looking up and up at the moment.

I started watching Alice in Borderland.Will watch the rest of the episodes when I am back at the Office. It is dubbed so do not have to read a lot. Few moments where I went WFH, but worth the watch

Two things... ECG AND THE O2 Stats.The rest of the things are minor for me. But knowing the stats during treatment is rather important to me. O2 stats especially, hitting a low O2 during treatment can spell disaster for me.

We watched TENET last week. A total mindscrew of a movie. Loved the music in the movie playing correct on the one team and reverse on the reverse team. Not a movie you fall asleep in and pick up where you woke up again. You have to focus a fair bit in the movie